Why I do this<\/p>\n
So last night the roomies, brought up the fact that I got some names wrong on my blog, and were curious as to how the hell I could do that, when on the very same bight I was writing about, I asked the person directly what their name was. Well easy I\u2019m not good with names, especially ones I only meet 1 a week, and when I do meet them it\u2019s in a loud club, and usually drinks involved, but that\u2019s beside the point. The main item was of privacy, I won\u2019t go into detail because it\u2019s pointless, and I\u2019ll just remove their names from future posts. <\/p>\n
The big deal, which really wasn\u2019t that big, but I\u2019ve had a few people ask me, was why do I do web log, both of my roommates thinks it\u2019s gay, and pointless, but for me, it keeps me sane, it keeps me from doing things I know I shouldn\u2019t do but could do, mainly at work. Then the question of why I would put personal stuff about the apt on a webpage, and the following conversation ensued <\/p>\n
(Please note that exact dictation of the conversation is not available and thus I will break this down into a some what suitable form to convey the general layout, and course of the conversation, these words are not exact!)<\/p>\n
Me<\/p>\n
Roommate<\/p>\n
Other roommate<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Dude, why do you put shit that goes on here on your site? I think that\u2019s fucked up and disrespectful.<\/p>\n
Well seeing as it\u2019s an online journal, I\u2019m going to write about what? happens.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Yeah but you don\u2019t need to write about everything.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Your right but I write what I want and if it happens and I want to write about it then I will.<\/p>\n
Well just don\u2019t put people names in their, because some of them don\u2019t want their shit spread over the net like that\u2026<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Okay that\u2019s fine I won\u2019t use their names then.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
\u2026and don\u2019t use mine either.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Yeah or mine.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Fine that\u2019s kewl, whatever.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n
No it\u2019s not whatever, it\u2019s disrespectful, and you\u2019re dropping people names that don\u2019t want to be dropped.<\/p>\n
I wouldn\u2019t say I\u2019m dropping names; I\u2019m trying to be accurate.<\/p>\n
Yeah, but you asked that guy his name, that night and still got it wrong on your site.<\/p>\n
Well then obviously I don\u2019t know him that well to keep their names straight, I only see these people once a week in sporadic bursts, you guys see them all the time.<\/p>\n
Well still why even put that kinda shit up there, or when shit goes down here why is it every time we have argument or some shit happens here, you put that shit on the net in your distorted view, like its news for the world to see.. I mean we obviously know more people come to my site than yours and that you 4 readers are likely to never meet us in person, but still, there\u2019s no need to put personal shit up there, how would you like it if I put that shit on the front page of my site?<\/p>\n
Well from now on, I won\u2019t use anyone name, that doesn\u2019t want it used, as far as whatever happens here, if it happens and I\u2019m involved it\u2019s going to be written about if I want to, it\u2019s not some news site, it\u2019s my site, that\u2019s open for whoever to read. As for the distorted view, it\u2019s written in my perspective therefore, it\u2019s going to be my view, and obviously if we argued about something then are views are different to begin with, I wouldn\u2019t put your distorted view of the situation on there, simply because I perceive it as being distorted and incorrect, and if I didn\u2019t then obviously we wouldn\u2019t have argued about it to begin with. As for if you put the same kind of shit that I write on your page, I wouldn\u2019t care, I don\u2019t care, write away if you want.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s bullshit and you know it, you would care!<\/p>\n
Nope!<\/p>\n
Shut the fuck up, no matter what you say I know you would!<\/p>\n
Nope!<\/p>\n
Okay I take part of that back, maybe a few years ago, I would care, but now I don\u2019t, so if your basing that off the years you\u2019ve known me then it\u2019s accurate, but no longer applicable.<\/p>\n
Whatever, say what you want, you would.<\/p>\n
Dude if I gave a fuck about any of that shit, why the fuck would I be writing a book, why would I put the shit out there myself\u2026\u201dhello\u201d…I wouldn\u2019t!<\/p>\n
Whatever, say what you want, you would.<\/p>\n
I don\u2019t give a fuck, that\u2019s why I put it up there, but obviously yall don\u2019t wanna be mentioned so I won\u2019t put your names on anymore.<\/p>\n
So I guess most people would wonder why I just don\u2019t care about what anyone knows about me, simple, I had a life altering moment, actually several, that have accumulated over the years that has now changed the way I look at the world, and why I personally don\u2019t think it really matters what people know of me and my life. Which is overall the reason for my book, not that I hope that millions read it, hell I doubt it\u2019ll ever be published, but if it does, It won\u2019t matter to me what people think of it, it wasn\u2019t meant for them to begin with. <\/p>\n
That seems to be a common thing I\u2019ve noticed when I explain something that I do, or that I\u2019ve done to someone, most of the time they are under the assumption, I did it with them or someone else in mind, which is not the case the majority of the time. The majority of the time when I do something, or did something I did\/do it for myself, because I feel like it, or because I can. Nothing more, nothing less, it\u2019s that simple. If in the course of doing so somebody gets pissed, life goes on, get over it, just remember, 90% of the time, it had nothing to do with you to begin with, so why get pissed off about it. <\/p>\n
I\u2019m not going to go into great detail about what caused this changed, simply because it would be pointless to write it here and then have to go back and import it into the book formatting that I already have started, I can say this it\u2019s like the movie Contact<\/a>. The main character experience something that changes the way she looks at life and the world around her, the experience itself is not to prove something cut and dry, it\u2019s not to prove that one way is the way it should be or the way it has to be, but it does disprove that not every way or outlook on thing is the correct one. For me personally I\u2019ve dubbed it \u201cIDGAF (I Don\u2019t Give A Fuck)\u201d, this started some time ago as a weekend philosophy, but as been implement into a constant aspect, for now at least until things change or until another moment comes along and makes me re-evaluate things. I can\u2019t explain it entirely, and that\u2019s the reason why I\u2019m writing the book and why I write this journal.<\/p>\nShare this:<\/h3>