{"id":81,"date":"2001-11-08T05:09:00","date_gmt":"2001-11-08T12:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/djmgyx.net\/WP\/?p=81"},"modified":"2008-08-05T16:13:34","modified_gmt":"2008-08-05T23:13:34","slug":"thursday-november-8-2001-at-1009-pm","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/djmgyx.net\/WP\/thoughts\/thursday-november-8-2001-at-1009-pm","title":{"rendered":"Thursday November 8, 2001 at 10:09 pm"},"content":{"rendered":"

Justification<\/font><\/u><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

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Justify my existence I ask<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify why I should shed the mask<\/font><\/p>\n

Darkness, sorrow, agony, despair<\/font><\/p>\n

A piece of my life is what I share<\/font><\/p>\n

Death is only becoming to those who wish upon it<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify my existence<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify why I should live on with it<\/font><\/p>\n

The heartache, the loneliness, the sorrow, the lack of compassion<\/font><\/p>\n

Those are among the things I can live without<\/font><\/p>\n

If you an call my current state living<\/font><\/p>\n

Long ago I wrote of this sadness<\/font><\/p>\n

And today it still appears to be<\/font><\/p>\n

My heart is cold<\/font><\/p>\n

Nothing more than a shell of what once was<\/font><\/p>\n

Nothing matters anymore<\/font><\/p>\n

My happiness was a mere fantasy<\/font><\/p>\n

A delusion of sorts<\/font><\/p>\n

One that occasionally clouds my mind<\/font><\/p>\n

Like a mirage off in the distance<\/font><\/p>\n

The harder I try to reach it<\/font><\/p>\n

The further away it appears<\/font><\/p>\n

A goal that only others preach<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify my existence<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify how, when the only thing to keep me sane<\/font><\/p>\n

Has been taken away<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify my existence<\/font><\/p>\n

Justify how, when the powers that be reach out from the night<\/font><\/p>\n

You can\u2019t\u2026.<\/font><\/p>\n

That\u2019s what I thought!<\/font><\/font><\/p>\n

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