Monday December 17, 2001 at 11:08 pm

Not much of a change but it’ll do for now. I really feel like writing tonite, but don’t really have the energy right now. My brain is exhausted from work and any thought I have is coming out a light speed, thus there’s no way my hands could keep up with it. In the end I’d be frustrated that i couldn’t type as fast as I can think and just give up in the end. Maybe I’ll just do it all on my days off this week. Or maybe later tonite if my brain slows down enough to sort out my thoughts and feelings into something a little more tangible than uncontrolled fits of spattering nonsense. Anyway one thing I can’t get off my mind is the last good Christmas I had. Which is very unlikely to happen again, I take that back. It’s unlikely I’ll have another Christmas, in which I felt the same way I did then. Not by choice just by, but simply because she was in my life then.

Anyway I decide to throw my new years pick up from last year since it’s right around the corner again. Not that I’m excited about it, but lately there’s not much to be excited about.

See I have no idea what that last bit was meant to be..ugh